there are moments in my days where i feel like, i want to cut ties with my friends where however much i love them i feel that it's better if i go through life alone where i think i will never talk to any of them ever again, i will crawl into my bed, and stay there forever where i think i will never respond to a message ever again, total complete isolation, like i dropped off of this earth and yet, i never do this but i think about it, maybe too often sometimes i think, i don't want friends that having friends, means i have to be a good person, and not selfish, and that sometimes they have to listen to my problems and i feel like, why? why would they want to ever do such a thing? why do I have to put that on them? i have never paid them for anything for that, it is just not fair maybe it's better without friends