I don’t know what I’m going to do. I’ve never been in this position before. What am I supposed to do? I thought, that I was smart enough to handle everything that was going to get thrown at me, I thought that I was strong enough to handle what will come. I thought everything was going to be ok. I haven’t arrived there, but it does seem like I’ve been arriving the last few years.
What was I going to do for myself? It’s a hard day when you’re confronted by reality.
I want it to end, I don’t like being wrong. I mean, after all, what; the; fuck; did; i; believe in?